8 May
2014
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Letting Go of Self-Imposed Guilt

Most weeks I enjoy having a bigger family. None of those weeks fall in the month of May.

I am outnumbered 4-to-1. I’m thankful every day for a husband who is in the parenting trenches with me, but there are several times when two people just aren’t enough to cover scheduling conflicts. The events claiming my time are linked to my favorite people and causes I hold dear. It’s all joy-bringing, fun activities (maybe not the dentist appointments), and I know others who would swap me for my gloriously ordinary life, BUT I feel like I’m crawling toward the finish line. I’m struggling to meet everyone’s needs. The struggle is tiresome and not worth it. I can’t meet everyone’s needs and enjoy the good stuff the next few weeks hold.

The hard truth: I am but one person. There are two lines from the song Wake Me Up by Avicii that speak to my very soul each time I hear them:

I tried carrying the weight of the world, but I only have two hands.

Exactly. It’s a lot for me to carry. I tried. It was tiring, and now I’m done.

Letting Go of Self-Imposed Guilt

I’m releasing myself from my self-imposed cage of guilt. I do not need to be present at everything my children do in order for it to have happened. The world still turns if I miss book club. Organizations can operate perfectly fine if I can’t make a meeting. Grilled cheese sandwiches and salad are perfectly acceptable for dinner.

I tried carrying the weight of the world, but I only have two hands.

Letting go of the guilt.

I refuse for the month of May to deflate my spirit. My calendar will not be my nemesis. I know what I actually enjoy spending my time doing and what pushes me into my guilt cage. I adore field trips, picnics and band concerts. I savor those moments watching my children enjoy life.

Letting go of the guilt.

Letting Go of Self-Imposed Guilt

A birthday for my first grader followed closely by my fifth grader celebrating the end of elementary school and the closing of yet another school year have my emotions in high-gear. I want to finish this school year in a sprint, soaking all the important parts in and allowing the rest to wait their turn.

Letting go of the guilt and setting the world to the wayside. I have boys who have been begging to show me Minecraft. Changing and washing the sheets can wait.

 

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