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16 Mar
2017
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That Time Elton John Saved My Sanity

Elton John playing and singing

I know I sound melodramatic, but Elton John may have saved my sanity.

We’re awful at setting time aside for just the two of us. We have dinner dates at home after kids are in bed with takeout and a movie but are pros at having a litany of excuses for not leaving the house on dates. There’s not enough time. There are other ways to spend money. Quite frankly, we’re tired.

Elton John addressing the crowd in Wyoming

Craig enters contests regularly and has won some fun items and excursions in the past. Last week, he texted that he had won tickets to Elton John’s concert in our town. This concert wasn’t on our radar. It was scheduled for the middle of the week and more than we would spend on a date night. Winning tickets took away all our excuses. We were going on a date night with the bonus of being able to treat another couple with tickets.

Elton John playing piano

I’ve been in a funk. Life has become work, cook, laundry, driving, repeat. Craig and I were taking a backseat in our daily grind and efforts to meet the needs of our four kiddos. I feel less like a person and more like a task-oriented machine. Hours before the start of Elton John’s concert I stood in my kitchen cooking and washing dishes and venting to Craig about almost everything. Topics and thoughts were bouncing everywhere with no real connection besides me feeling unsettled and overwhelmed. Craig suffered through the onslaught of my concerns, stresses and repeated exclamations of being so very bone-weary tired.

Elton John's bass player in concert

The short drive to the concert was filled with more logistical talking about how we were going to get X, Y and Z done with out dropping A and B. We arrived 30 minutes early to full parking lots and long lines waiting for security.  I could feel the stress, worries and exhaustion slide away as we waited to enter the events center. The excitement was palpable.

Elton John's guitarist in concert

From the moment Elton John and his band took the stage, there was only that. I was the person who loves concerts, is moved by music and appreciates talent and effort. I wasn’t the cook, chauffeur, maid, secretary. I was a woman with her husband and friends experiencing a legend. It was the amazing, memorable experience I needed exactly when it was needed. For the first time in weeks, I allowed myself to just be. I wasn’t thinking about basketball practices or piles of laundry or work left unfinished. Elton John doing what he does unbelievably well was all there was for me. Our seats were close to the stage. Elton John has a way of addressing the crowd that made me feel like he was excited to be in Wyoming playing for me. It seemed there was no better place to be than right there on that stage. He is amazing.

Elton John walking across a stage

Elton John concert Casper, Wyoming

I didn’t crawl out of bed this morning already thinking about the numerous tasks needing to be completed today. I didn’t have the urge to check my email as soon as my early morning workout was complete. I eased into my day which is a gift. Thank you to a husband who enters contests and an amazing group of entertainers for reminding me that motherhood doesn’t mean I have to lose myself in the process. Here’s to more moments of allowing life to happen.


 
40
By     |    Feb 20, 2017
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40

Forty years…that seems like a lot of life and yet not much at all. I won’t shed tears over this milestone. I’ve been celebrating this birthday since last month when we visited California. We spent my birthday weekend snowshoeing in Grand Teton National Park. I said goodbye to my 30s and hello to this new decade with multiple adventures. Growing older has taught me to make experiences happen, and I’m abundantly grateful to have another year of living written in... [Read More]

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Sometimes Life is That Cliché
By     |    Feb 3, 2017
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Sometimes Life is That Cliché

If there’s one thing I know about parenting, it’s that children grow up too fast. I know. I know. It’s the epitome of cliché, but also heartrendingly true. Our oldest will be a freshman next year and will register for high school classes this month. I’m sentimental, sometimes to a fault. The email confirming his placement in high school seemed surreal. It surely belonged in someone’s else inbox. I can’t possibly have a teenager in high school. I’m too young,... [Read More]

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Favorite Books of 2016
By     |    Dec 30, 2016
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Favorite Books of 2016

I’m a bibliophile. I have a rotating stack of books on my bedside table, a never-ending list of books on hold at the public library and keep track of the books I read each year. This year I read 60 books, not including the countless books read to and with children. What follows are my favorite books from 2016: A Man Called Ove by Fredrik Backman This is not only a favorite book from this year but one I’ll be... [Read More]

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Gifting Experiences Over Things
By     |    Dec 12, 2016
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Gifting Experiences Over Things

I watched our seven-year-old come on stage to walk-through her part in The Great Russian Nutcracker with big eyes and slightly hesitant steps. The stage was bigger than she’s used to dancing on with movable backdrops and multiple props lining the stage’s wings. Professional dancers from the Moscow Ballet company waited in the wings or on the stage. They were speaking Russian and looked aloof and marginally bored. As I watched our daughter and her fellow snowflakes, I was impressed... [Read More]

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Mama, They See You
By     |    Jun 6, 2016
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Mama, They See You

I’ll be limping across the finish line this week on the last day of school wrung-out and emotionally drained. Our 5th grader has had A YEAR. I cannot tell you anything specific academically he learned because academics took a backseat this year to some serious life lessons. There have been difficulties in the classroom with another student. There have been laws to study and bureaucracy to wade through. There have been meetings and emails…so many meetings and emails. We seriously... [Read More]

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A Birthday and Loss
By     |    May 11, 2016
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A Birthday and Loss

Today our third son celebrates his ninth birthday. I cannot believe he’s already nine, but also feel he’s older than those short nine years. He’s a joy-filled, sports-loving boy who was born at a time when his mama needed him most. Ten years ago I was pregnant for the third time and over-the-moon excited to add to our family. Eleven weeks into the pregnancy I experienced cramping and was placed on bed rest. Two days later the cramping turned to... [Read More]

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Reasons I Love You
By     |    Feb 11, 2016
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Reasons I Love You

This year I’ve implemented a new-to-us idea for our kids leading up to Valentine’s Day. You’ve probably seen the idea of love notes floating around social media. The idea is to write a note with a different thing you love about your child every day from Feb. 1-14. I’ve never been a fan of Valentine’s Day. I’d much rather be surprised by chocolate on a random Wednesday “just because” than on Feb. 14. My husband surprised me with coffee when he arrived... [Read More]

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Rise
By     |    Jan 13, 2016
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Rise

I’ve been slow to warm to 2016. Normally new beginnings invigorate me, but this new year finds me tired and sluggish. I feel burdened by decisions and the rigmarole of the day-to-day. My system feels overloaded to the point of shutdown. I’ve struggled the last few weeks with the restart of school to establish a rhythm. Nothing seems to click. I seem to be one step off my game and forcing my way through the daily. I thoroughly enjoyed my... [Read More]

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For Our Teenage Son
By     |    Nov 10, 2015
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For Our Teenage Son

I quietly listened to an acquaintance lament about life with a teenage son. I knew she expected me to jump in with my own complaints, but I wasn’t taking the bait. I spent years listening to people tell me to just wait until I had a teenager. It always sounded ominous. Our man/child first born is, at the worst, annoying, loud, selfish and stinky. I know the teenage waters have potential to become choppy and murky over the years, but... [Read More]

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Shaking the Worry Over the Middle Child
By     |    Oct 20, 2015
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Shaking the Worry Over the Middle Child

Our middle son came into the world quietly. He spent the first few hours of his life wide-eyed staring at us, but the quiet didn’t last long. He struggled to gain weight those first few months and refused to sleep most of his first year of life. He cried a lot, and I shed my share of tears. Those first 13 months were riddled with worry for that boy, and I never really shook the extra concern for him. Fast... [Read More]

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Taking a Chance with School Involvement
By     |    Oct 5, 2015
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Taking a Chance with School Involvement

We’ve had children at the same elementary school for eight years. I’m comfortable with the staff. I have a good understanding of how things work, how I can be involved as a parent, and the best avenue to take when issues arise. We’re in year two of middle school. I was more nervous for that first day of middle school last year than our son. I was clueless on what to expect from parking to volunteering to knowing teachers. I... [Read More]

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